One new thing can flip a whole life upside down. It can destroy your core identity, your thoughts about religion, and make you feel like nothing.
In a single realisation, you have no clue who you are anymore. Whatever you thought you knew about your life is suddenly brought into question. You look to the religion that you've followed your whole life (albeit maybe not very strictly) and see that you are now abandoned by the very deities and writings that you've worshiped and believed in. You can't tell anyone you know, especially not strangers lest they turn you away as some freak, some monster, or worst of all, some demon.
You want to change, however, you can't. You don't want any of this, but you don't want to stay like this either. You are the same person you have always been but now everyone is going to treat you so differently, in all the wrong ways. As if this was some choice. As if you don't belong here on Earth. As if you aren't human.
If you know what I'm talking about, this category of my blog is for you, all of you, all of us.
If you don't, sit down, open up your mind, and you might just learn something.